i have so much advise for you. you’re just like me. you’re always yearning for something that is hidden beneath the depths. you’ll find it. i finally did. but finding something profoundly important takes time. realize early that it is going to be a long process. you’ll have to work through the muck slowly. i will always be here to remind you to live fully while you’re searching. life will eventually show you the way, one step at a time. when you’re ready son, when you’re ready.