a serious case of the giggles
i have so much advise for you. you’re just like me. you’re always yearning for something that is hidden beneath the depths. you’ll find it. i finally did. but finding something profoundly important takes time. realize early that it is going to be a long process. you’ll have to work through the muck slowly. i will always be here to remind you to live fully while you’re searching. life will eventually show you the way, one step at a time. when you’re ready son, when you’re ready.
you’re still riding the american pride wave from memorial day and anxiously awaiting the 4th of july.
You need not do anything. Remain sitting at your table and listen. You need not even listen, just wait. You need not even wait, just learn to be quiet, still and solitary. And the world will freely offer itself to you unmasked. It has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.
auntie aimee was over while i was editing this picture of you. we kept starring at the screen in disbelief. how can one child be this beautiful? i suspect that we might be a little bias.
a windy afternoon at the big sand hill in malibu.
“jt, please look at mommy for a second, the light is so pretty in this restaurant.”
thank you for looking buddy. i think this expression is perfect, i would be annoyed by me too.
today we took a drive to the big rock in malibu. we love to go there and wait for the sun to set. there is nothing more beautiful.
you want to go out front and play. you’re sick of playing in the backyard. but the baby is sleeping and i can’t let you out front alone. it’s not like when i was a child. i could play outside all day. i ran around our neighborhood and through the woods. i rode my bike everywhere and knocked on neighbors doors to play with their kids. i never had to worry about my safety.
i am so sorry it has to be this way buddy. i wish i had a better explanation for you. but i don’t even understand why some human beings are so cruel. i don’t understand why some human beings are only concerned with the physical being, forgetting of the soul, living life for the sole purpose of satisfying the ego and it’s desires and needs. i shelter you from that world. but someday you will learn on your own that there is a darkness out there–a darkness that produces all the problems we see in the world.